i wanna go to places.
and take the pictures that i love taking so much.
since blogger is so damn slow.
and i can't be bothered with making an account.
maybe if i have the kind of internet speed i need and the time, i'll do it all.

i wanna take more pictures at CHIJMES.
i wanna take more pictures at RAFFLES HOTEL.
i wanna take more pictures at RANDOM PLACES.
i wanna take more pictures of JASON, just to prove that he can take nice pictures that are not emo or gay.

but i need a camera first.

jealousy and paranoia is a part of a relationship.
but its being close to someone and having someone there that i miss the most.

since that fateful day, i've been scared.

do you know how it feels to be used?
to know that this happening to you and you allow it to happen because you loved him?
to have someone whom you thought that will be there forever but it was never true.
do you know how it feels like, not to be able to let go?
do you know how it feels like to live in fear that all relationships will be exactly the same?
that you've been hurt and to hurt so many times because of this fear?
you simply dont.

its just so many heat to heart talks with a few people these past few days.
jason told me that fate happens. coming only when you dont expect it.
my fat friend telling me that i'll heal.
me telling myself i'll be stronger.

i hope so.

enough of emo stuff.

i'm happy with the new wallet.
i'm happy with new movies in my lappy, and school has started.
i should be happy.

and new comics too!